Noone else comes close

It was weird, how I met him. He was supposed to be my then boyfriend's 'test' if I really loved him and could be trusted. It backfired. This guy who did nothing but cheer me up, make me smile whenever we talk... I fell in love with him.

I kept denying it. He was not saying anything. Until we found ourselves celebrating his birthday, a couple of weeks after I broke up with my boyfriend.

I surprised him with a birthday cake. He was feeling depressed because he hadn't talked to his parents for weeks, not knowing where they were. He had globe-trotting parents so it was hard for him to track them down. His brother was working for an international geographic magazine, doing photography work. He was feeling all alone and that probably triggered everything... or was it fate?

We were shocked when it happened. Oh, it was pure bliss, kissing him. But we both felt guilty afterwards. I just broke up with one of his closest friends. It was like cheating or something. So we conveniently forgot about it, acted as if nothing momentous happened, shrugging the sweetest kiss I had.

The weekend after that night, some common friends decided to give him a big birthday bash. They hired a band to play during the party and decided to dump the band's lead singer. He would be the vocalist that night. Did I mention he has the best singing voice I've heard so far?!

He sang the night away. He kept on looking at me. He sang some of my favorite songs, his alternative way. Some friends were already teasing me, they noticed how we probably looked at each other. But I kept telling them to stop it, we were just friends, I said.

And then he sang our song...

No one else comes close to you
No one makes me feel the way you do
You're so special girl, to me
And you'll always be, eternally
Every time I hold you near
You always say the words I love to hear
Girl with just a touch, you can do so much
No one else comes close

We knew we were in trouble. I knew I was in big trouble! I could hear my heart doing the cha-cha. I could not tear my eyes away from him. I was feeling cold and hot all of a sudden. And I could not stop smiling and I was all teary-eyed for no reason except that the man singing our song was telling me that he loved me in some other way.

After the song, he went directly to where I was sitting. He bent close and whispered the words he was singing a mere minutes ago... I love you so much, he said.

I love you girl in every way
And I always will cause in my eyes
No one else comes close

I can't make you love me..

I'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight
Cause I cant make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark in these lonely hours I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
Cause I cant make you love me, if you don't

Every beat of my heart...

I could feel
It coming from a mile away
When I opened up the door
I saw everything that I've been waiting for, hey
Close your eyes
I don't care what other people say
Here underneath the stars
Now Jupiter and Mars don't seem so far away

I want you to know
You take my breath away
And it's been that way right from the start
I didn't know how to tell you
That I want to love you
With every beat of my hear

Take my hand
Don't be afraid, don't go
I want you to stay
Just relax your mind
I promise that tomorrow will be just like today

That's why I want you to know
That you take my breath away
And it's been that way right from the start
I didn't know to to tell you
That I want to love you
With every beat of my heart

Cute little Agnes

I don't know with you but when I see photos of Boo (that little kid from Monsters, Inc.) and Agnes (from Despicable Me), I smile a lot! Love those two characters so much. They are so cute!

Now the gif photos above are enough to make me smile on this Monday morning. I hope it made you smile, too.

Happy Monday everyone!

;)

Mr. Bean's Ability

Ability is when you can make three generations of people laugh their socks off without uttering a single word.

And that ability rests on Rowan Atkinson... also known as Mr. Bean to his legions of fans. Can you imagine how effective his comedy is? My dad who is in his 50's, my little girl who is 6 years old, and every one at home in between would laugh like there's no tomorrow whenever we watch an episode of Mr. Bean! That's how funny he is!

I like that Mr. Atkinson protects his family by separating his personal life from his career. He doesn't grant interviews about his family and as much as he can, he actually avoids interviews of any kind.

Way to go, Mr. Bean! Keep on making us laugh!

Emma off to Oxford University

Dressed down in jeans, boots and an anorak, the Harry Potter actress looked like any other proud newbie on her first day at Oxford University.

Only Watson is worth £24million and is a global superstar.
- The Daily Mail

Emma Watson, otherwise known as Hermione Granger to Harry Potter fans like you and me, is off to complete a term at the prestigious Oxford University. She remains enrolled in Brown University in the US but will only go back to the Ivy League school next year to complete her studies.

Meanwhile she is temporarily saying goodbye to fans while she is busy with uni. She wrapped up work for My Week With Marilyn, due out later this year, and The Perks Of Being A Wallflower. Anyway, here's what she has to say about her temporary goodbye to the limelight...

To Everyone who is starting a New School Year, (sorry those who have been at school for a while Oxford starts late).

Just to say have a great term and good luck with all your work.

You might not hear from me for a while because I will be really busy studying but I wanted to just say hi and bye.

Wishing her all the luck on her acting and studies!

Mine No More

The soul that belongs to me is no longer mine
Though I was born with it at the start of time

It now belongs to someone dear
Someone I love, it's now so clear

Darling, I hope that I will always be yours
My heart longs for you, it seems to call

I could not listen to it before
I was caught up in so much more

I realise now that my soul is yours,
it will always be until the doors
Of heaven pull me through the golden gates,
and there I will sit and wait

For you to enter my sweet world
Once again you'll be my girl

My tears fall as my brittle heart weeps
My soul is always yours to keep

I can't take it back, not for anyone
Not for freezing ice nor burning sun

Not for mountains high or rivers deep
My soul is always yours to keep

Not for anyone or anything
Your name is what my soul sings
Not for crashing thunder nor ripping wind
Or voices that tell me to give in

Not for the giant moon nor furthest star
My heart and soul are mine no more.

Maybe the old songs...

Songs can make us remember even the tiniest details of our lives. When you hear a song, you feel this tug in your heart and then a memory resurfaces, good or bad.

During nights like these, when I have tons of things to do, I make it a point to turn on the radio. Besides keeping me company, music helps me think.

And I was able to hear this old song again…

in my time, i’ve lived and loved so much
through each high and low, i let my heart be touched
in my time, there isnt much i’ve missed,
i’ve seen love come and go, but heaven knows, i’ve never loved like this
in my time

A couple more thousands of words to go! Thank you for the music that's keeping me company...

;)

Kay Tagal

Kay Tagal... You know that song by Rachel Alejandro? I love that song a lot! It brings back so many good memories of my teenage years. I am listening to it right now and the feeling is incredible.



I feel like I am back in the 90s and savoring the taste of first love.

Sigh.

Wedding Day

My knees were shaking as I glanced at him, "my ex-boyfriend" .. he's with someone malamang girlfriend nya.

I pretended na di ko sya nakita, but he grabbed my shoulder bag at napalingon ako.. alam ko sya ang humila ng bag ko..

"Chesk" (as usual na tawag nya sa akin) at parang wala lang, I said "hi" kanina pa daw nya ako nakita hindi lang daw ako namamansin, sabi ko na lang sensya, I was busy fixing my things, sabay smile.

He asked me If I received the invitation of his wedding..saka ko lang naalala ikakasal na nga pala cia, kelan? 3 days from now..date pa yun ng anniversary namin.. the man I loved before is announcing the date of his wedding with this curly haired lady in front of me.. the man who's deeply in love with me before..*sigh* *..
it's been 2 years since we last talked, siguro masasabi kong.. I missed him, so much... hindi lang talaga maganda ang naging paghihiwalay namin, may mga bagay talaga na dapat ayusin, mga bagay na nasira sa mga hindi inaasahang pangyayari.. pero akala ko lang pala yon, akala ko lang na magiging maayos ang lahat.
as I opened the invitation,napansin ko agad ang date.. anniversary nga namin dati.. una kong naisip inaasar nya ako tamang ganti lang sa mga ginawa ko noon.. pero hindi ako nagpaasar. Eto nga at nakikipagchikahan pa ako sa harap ng kanyang fiancée. Bakit? Dahil ba wala lang sa akin? Ayos lang na makipagbolahan ako dito sa kanilang dalawa??..
O magaling lang ako magtago ng nararamdaman? Ang hirap kaya ng ginagawa ko ngayon, trying to be nice with them.
Naah!! Nagsisi na ako noon, ayoko na magsisi ulit ngayon. Gusto kong ipakita sa kanya na masaya ako para sa kanilang dalawa. oo dapat may ayusin pa akong mga bagay bagay, pero naisip ko para saan pa?
wala naman na akong babalikan, wala naman na akong pagbabawian sa kasalanang nagawa ko.. pero kung alam nya lang..sobrang nagsisi ako sa mga nangyari.. kung alam nya lang kung anong mga gusto kong sabihin ngayon..
hindi ko cia iniwan, nawala lang ako saglit para ihulma ang sarili ko sa kung sino mang gusto nyang maging ako..pero cympre hindi nya ako naintindihan. ..pero umaasa ako na kahit papano..sana. . alam nya yon..
"we have to go cheska" nasabi ng kanyang fiancée, "aasahan ka namin sa kasal"
"ah.. uhm yah.. p-pupunta ako" ngiti lang sakin si Ace
"c-congratulations. ." habol ko pa
*hinga ng malalim**..
*Sa Church**
Exactly 2pm kami dumating sa church..kasama ko best friend kong si Jelai chinika na agad nya ako, ano daw ba ang nararamdaman ko na hindi ako ang bride ni Ace, sagot ko "wala lang".. She just smiled at me, thinking that "wala lang" nga talaga.. pero kung alam nya lang, I wanted to shout in front of everybody.. gusto kong ipaalam na ako ang dapat na inaabangan ng lahat ngayon..
pero hndi pa ako baliw para gawin ang mga walang kwentang bagay na yon dahil lang sa lalaking mahal ko pa rin
"ata"?
after 10mins, the ceremony started.
I noticed the motif, it was pink..my favorite color. I asked the girl beside me kung sinong nag asikaso ng lahat ng ito.. she said si Ace daw.. tango lang ako..
as I quietly sitting there.. while watching the couples, there was a girl beside them who motioned forward to pick her microphone. Sabi ko medyo malilibang na ako, gusto ko kasing nakakapanood ng mga kumakanta..
afterwards, she started to sing..
*pause**..
I know the song.. I almost cried when I hear that.. that's our theme song.. how dare him played that song na nandito ako.. hindi ko magets kung ano man ang gusto nyang palabasin? Kung nananadya ba cia? O talagang inaasar nya lang ako?..
"you may now kiss your bride"..
Di ko na napansing natapos ang kanta dahil sa mga sunod sunod na pumasok sa isip ko.
..he looked at me first before he kissed his wife..
gusto ko ciang batuhin ng sapatos ko sa mga ginagawa nya..kelangan kong makahanap ng tiyempo para maconfront cia.. para maintindihan ko ang mga nangyayari.. pinag kakaisahan ba nila ako? O feeling ko lang yun?..
tapos na ang kasal, hindi na maganda ang mood ko, bakit pa kasi ako nag-i-stay? Lalo lang akong naiinsulto sa mga nakikita ko sa paligid, mas maraming bagay lang akong nakikita na nagpapaalala noong kami pa.. I really have to go, I have no purpose of being here.. *kinakausap ko na ang sarili ko**
walang lingon lingon akong naglakad papalayo.. kelangan kong makalabas ng simbahan agad..
sige cheska, almost there..
It was two steps away from the opened door of the church when unexpectedly. .
"where are you going?"
I slowly faced him with teary eyes,
there was a long awkward pause.
"what are you doing??"
i looked straight at him.. "that was supposed to be.. my question.."
his eyes were full of questions.. we just stared at each other..
after a few seconds, I sighed more heavily.. and then..
"how dare you play our song in your wedding ceremony?, how dare you pick my
favorite color as your motif?, how dare you choose our anniversary date as your
wedding date?"
my tears falling freely.. "how dare you look at me before you
kiss your wife?"..
Ace looked straight at me,
and after a few seconds of silence..
"because that's the last and only way I could..
imagine you're my wife"

"People will forget what you said.
People will forget what you did.
But people will never forget
How you made them feel ..."

*emailed to me by a friend

Loving Jason Mraz...

I love his cool voice and that lethargy that settles in you when you hear his songs. All you can think is lounging somewhere relaxing and peaceful. With a glass of fruit shake with that little umbrella on the side. Your glasses on, a good book just beside the chaise lounge you're lying on. The sun beating down on you.

I am currently addicted to Clockwatching...

Nothing left to lose...

something’s in the air tonight
the sky's alive with a burning light
you can mark my words something's about to break

and i found myself in a bitter fight
while i've held your hand through the darkest night
don't know where you're coming from but you're coming soon...

come on and we'll sing, like we were free
push the pedal down watch the world around fly by us
come on and we'll try, one last time
i'm off of the floor one more time to find you

and here we go there's nothing left to choose...
and here we go there's nothing left to lose.