Oct 24, 2006

For you my friend...


Anger. It's easy to define: the noise of the soul. Anger. The unseen irritant of the heart. Anger. The relentless invader of silence...

The louder it gets the more desperate we become...

Some of you are thinking... you don't have any idea how hard my life has been. And you're right, I don't. But I have a very clear idea how miserable your future will be unless you deal with your anger.

X-ray the world of the vengeful and behold the tumor of bitterness: black, menacing, malignant. Carcinoma of the spirit. Its fatal fibers creep around the edge of the heart and ravage it.

Yesterday you can't alter, but your reaction to yesterday you can.

The past you cannot change, but your response to your past you can.



I have this ten-year-old note/scrapbook that I keep. It has some special letters from close friends, some quotes, some things I've written. And some memories of my dead brother and mother.

I got inspired to look for it when I saw Bee's post. Ayun, I saw it in the storage area and was amazed at how much junk I've accumulated all these years! I've got several organizers (some still unused and which I already gave to cousins), several notebooks and boxes of books! Grabe, I can fill a single room with all my junk! But that's another post... hehehe

Anyway, when I read this entry I wrote (or probably clipped from a magazine), I knew I had to post this for a friend. You know who you are. Di ko na sabihin at baka you don't want me to mention you. But this is what I've been telling you a while ago.

I hope that in time, you'd be able to let go of all that junk from your childhood. It'll make you swim easier, I'm sure of it :)

***

My Monday was great!

I watched The Banquet, it stars Ziyi Zhang, Daniel Wu, Ge You and the (super hot) Huang Xiaomoing. It's a loose adaptation of Hamlet according to the posters and reviews I've read. I was excited to see it not because of that but because I'm a big fan of Chinese films. Eventhough the movie's in Mandarin and I had to get accustomed to reading the subtitles fast while enjoying the film, I still loved every minute of the movie! The fight scenes reminded me of Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon... as well as those early Sunday mornings Channel 9 Chinese shows of my youth.

The story is about desire and the choice between life or death. As usual, Ziyi gave her best as the Empress. (If you want to see Ziyi's naked form, her back specifically, watch this movie!) Daniel Wu who played the Crown Prince is so guapo and vulnerable... you'd want to protect him as well. But the guy who stole my heart in this movie is Huang Xiaomoing! He's guapo, more than Daniel Wu! Daniel Wu looked like a wimp beside Xiaomoing! I love the song at the end of the movie. I need to find the title of that song :)

I'm not in the mood to tell the story... all I can say it, watch the movie! It's worth your time!

Anyway, I watched the movie by myself. It's okay for me to watch movies alone naman especially if those people I'm supposed to go with suddenly had other schedules.

Pero pinagtawanan ako ng iba dyan kasi I'm preparing for my being single na raw talaga. Ansama! Hahaha... Buti na lang hindi ako pikon ^_^

26 comments:

yorokobee said...

ayan naalala mo tuloy sila...ganyan ang nangyayari pagmahaba ang bakasyon!haha hanapin ang mga gamit sa baul,hihi *wink*

sweet friend ka!i like you*,*
ngeeh baka isipin nila ako yung tinutukoy mo...hahaha

sasha said...

natuwa nga ako Bee kasi i haven't thought of this notebook for years... at nung nahanap ko yesterday, ansaya ko! ;)

uy thanks! i try to be a really good friend especially to those people who are really good to me :)

teka at linawin ko... GUY ang tinutukoy ko sa post ko... guy friend sya :)

nyt nyt Bee! :)

Vince said...

Ate Sash, ok lang sa akin kung banggitin mo, nai-post ko nga sa comment section ni Ate Melai but i thought masama implications, wala naman ah. Im tankful I elarned how to blog, no fear hahaha! tnx po... :)

Vince said...

...may last words...
"I am thankful that I learned how to blog"

Sorry sa errors hehehe....

Vince said...

"Anyway, I watched the movie by myself. It's okay for me to watch movies alone naman especially if those people I'm supposed to go with suddenly had other schedules.

Pero pinagtawanan ako ng iba dyan kasi I'm preparing for my being single na raw talaga. Ansama! Hahaha... Buti na lang hindi ako pikon ^_^"

I LIKE THESE LINES, ate... hahaha! may kakampi pala ako hahaha! and...naiba kasi scheds nating lahat e, kaya yan tuloy nangyari....bad, hehehe :D

tina said...

naku, like you i have lots of notebooksss. :)

anger should be released. ;p

potpot said...

wah!! achie!! hehehe.. napadaan!!! naalala ko ung scrap book ko!! heehhe.. scrapbook talk ba itoh?! hehehe. .:) aun.. buhay p un.. 2 yrs old palang.. hnd ko na maalala kng sn ko nilagay! heheehhe

Anonymous said...

ang kahapon nagdaan nga naman!

wag nang malumbay kung ikaw ay alone blessed daw mga single...

single blessedness! joke lang, bata ka pa naman

howling said...

Wow! Bakasyon mo rin? Just dropping by to your blog. I get confused... How often do you change the layout? LOL. The last one was quite good. May niyayakap ka pa. Ganyan talaga if you have all the time in the world, you just look for something to fiddle with. I wish nandyan ako sa Pinas, so I can look for those lost love letters and corny poems that is hidden somewhere. Have a lovely time!!!

rHo said...

naks... baka meron pang natira sa baul mo! hehehe!

kailangan talaga i let go na yang galit na yan kasi wala naman maidudulot na mabuti yan para sa atin e! mahihirapan lang tayo lalo..

Anonymous said...

I'm reminded of this Barbara Streisand song with misty colored faded memories something something.

It may be in the corners of your mind or in a weathered wooden box, but they're the same warm banana.

Cheers!

Anonymous said...

Bee's post reminded me of my mom too, kakamiss...kaya kahapon, i went to her grave. di ko kasi sila madalaw on Nov.1..
I agree w/ bee sis, sweet ka talaga..'though dito lang tayo nagmeet...feel ko matagal na tayong magkakilala...kahit sa text lang tayo at sa blogging nagbabonding, I'm happy..oh,sounds corny...pero true 'yan!:-)

cruise said...

hi sasha...

kung nakapunta ka na Los Banos Laguna madali lang, sakay ka lang tricycle at sabihin mo Hidden Palos, tapos pagbaba mo ng tryc sundan mo lang yung trail, di ka maliligaw...

kung di ka pa nakapunta ng los banos laguna, sakay ka lang jeep from crossing mandaluyong to rizal, from rizal ipat ka jeep to los banos laguna.

malaya said...

sure kol me by mah name.

Naku dami rin akong scraps at ultimo tissue paper na may quote na nakasulat e, buhay pa sa organizer ko.
Imagine, meron din akong naitagong mga receipts at price tags ng mga binili ko noon pang college. ewan ko bat di ko tinatapon. hehehe.

***
gusto ko rin si Ziyi Zhang. May hawig siya kay Sancai noh?

***
buti ka pa masaya lalo na tuwing weekend.

ralphT said...

:)

Mmy-Lei said...

di ka nag-iisa! ako rin sana'y ng manood mag-isa! mas feel ko pa nga manood mag-isa kesa may kasamang tili ng tili or tanong ng tanong!

Anonymous said...

para sa kin,masama ang mag tanim ng galit sa dibdib,kaya di ko gawain yun,or maybe na improved ko na rin ang sarili ko. :)

sorry to hear na your bro and mom are gone na pala...

makapaghalungkat nga rin,kaya lang baka kung anu ano lang ang lumabas,wag na,haha,pero you just keep them,ang gandang souvenirs diba?*wink*

ingats lagi..Sash..

ann said...

Dati ang dami ko ring abubot sa baul..hehehe..nakakahinayang kasing itapon, kaya lang natabunan ng lahar so memories na lang. Syempre bago bitbitin yung mga yun eh sarili muna ang iligtas.

Wag kang makinig kay mommy lei,(peace) man hater yan eh...hehehe.

sasha said...

Oist Kuya... oo nga para sa iyo itong post na 'to! hahaha

At wag na ng maghanap ng kakampi pa! :)

Bsta sa Nov 3 ha.. dont forget ;)

sasha said...

@tina... parang u cant have enough notebooks ano? ako ganyan e! esp. if i see a really cute one hehe

@shobe potpot... hanapin mo na tapos matutuwa ka sa mababasa mong naisulat mo noon pa! ganyan ako nung nakita ko itong notebook ko e! hahaha

@mousey... nde pa naman ako nalulumbay... running joke sa akin ng mga guys friends ko yan... at nyang si kuya! hahaha

@howling... I change designs if I feel like it. hehehe... ako i found tons of old letters! pati yung ka-corny-han namin ng mga friends ko nabasa ko ulit. saya!

@rHo... sis, tama ka dyan! meron pang natira... alikabok! hahaha...

sasha said...

@momel... it's fun to reminisce about the old days... and i get that same old warm feeling when i read my old notebooks and letters :)

@nona... sis, natuwa naman ako! di corny noh! i feel the same way nga e... nakakatuwa kasi di ba we gained each other's friendship through blogging :)

sweet ba? hehe... i just treat my friends the same way i want to be treated... naku sis, magkita na kasi pagbalik mo ha... :)

ingats ka sa Singapore ha... at ingats si fafi mo sayo! hahaha... namis mo sobra ano? *wink*

@cruise... salamat dude! punta kami next week :)

@mareng karen... ako rin pati dried roses meron pa! hahaha... nakakatuwa lang di ba? lalo na when u look at the dates tapos makita mo yung letter is 10 years old na...

yep, magkahawig nga sila ni SanCai... at kinis ng likod nya sa movie! magpyesta mata ng mga lalaki dun sigurado!

at masaya talaga ako pag weekend! hehe

sasha said...

yehey @mmy lei, may nakakarelate na sa akin! hahaha

bihira naman ako manood mag-isa talaga. minsan lang kung nandun na ako sa mall tapos wala naman available na friend, go na ako kahit mag-isa. minsan kasi antagal bago makahanap ng free time uli :)

@ate ghee... tumpak! masama nga magtanim ng galit... kaya nga ang kuya pilit ng iwinawaksi ang galit sa puso nya. di ba kuya? :)

at naintriga naman ako sa pwede mong mahalungkat ha ate ghee! hahaha joke!

my brother died more than 8 years ago. yung mom ko naman last year lang. pero we're okay now. ganun talaga ang life e...

luv yah, ate ghee! muah!

@ate ann... sayang naman pala! nakakatuwa rin kasi magtabi ng mga abubot dahil minsan kapag mabigat pakiramdam mo tapos nabasa mo yung mga kalokohan mo dati, nakakagaan ng dalahin sa buhay... balik sa pagiging bata kahit ilang minuto lang :)

mmy lei, tunay ba ang sinabi ni ate ann?? hahaha peace rin! :)

melai said...

naalala ko yung song book na pinagbubuhusan namin ng panahon ni younger at youngest sis matagal na panahon na ..... sa record book yun na malaki ...kung saan nilalagay namin yung mga usong kanta nung mga panahon na yun at mga lumang kanta na maganda sa pandinig namin ...... ang tagal tagal naming tinago tapos nung may isang kaibigan na humiram ..... hindi na nabalik :(
hmmnnn magaling na ba umrate si ZHang Ziyi diyan sa napanood mo?
kasi walang ka ekspre ekspresyon ang mukha ni Zhang Ziyi pag umaarte e ..di ko siya gusto :(

sasha said...

dumaan din ako sa song book ate melai... buhay pa nga yung isang notebook kong puro kanta ang laman e! heheh

may expression na naman ang kanyang mukha, in fairness! hahaha

Anonymous said...

haha!naintriga ka ha?eh kung anu ano lang talaga yun,sarap ngang ipapakage lahat sa pinas,lahat ng kalat,hehe..

puro abubot..damit,sapatos,etc.etc..
walang buhay anoh? :)

ingatsssssss!muahhh!

sasha said...

hahaha

naintriga nga ako, ate ghee! ako, si mommy tagatapon ko ng mga abubot dati... ngaun ang daddy na! hahaha

About Me

My Photo
Miss Blogger
I am Sasha. Blogger, first and foremost. I'm not much of a social creature but I treasure the few people I connect with. I am an accountant by profession, and an addicted blogger. Blogging makes me happy and it's my therapy. I love sunshine, bright lights, lavender, coffee. And books!
View my complete profile