Just let go...

There are some things in life where we don't have any control over. I get that. As a flawed human being, you can't help but still worry over it, be sad over those things. If it happens, then it's meant to be. Just let go of those things that make you sad, frustrated, angry. I know it isn't easy but just think of the opportunity to be happy...

It is not easy. I have worries right this very minute. I am worrying over a love one. I am worrying about this coming school break. I am worrying about other stuff.

But I will try to let go...

And let God do the worrying for me.

Someday...

More often than not, I get this overwhelming regret for the wrong decisions I've made in the past. I feel it in my whole being. Sometimes it becomes too much that I would get depressed over it.

I know you will say that I should get over it because it's in the past and I can change my future blah blah. To tell you the truth, I know that and I've been trying to change my future for the past couple of years now. Trying to make a better tomorrow all the time. But there were lapses in judgment. There were visits from the past that I had no control over. There were times when I felt I was being haunted by my past...

I keep telling myself and other people that I am happy where I am now. I am actually happy except there's always a "but" in most of my sentences. So I don't know if something's lacking in my life because I am still plagued with so many regrets and worries.

I could have done better. I could have listened more. I could have said no. I could have turned my back before it was too late.

:(

Someday I will learn to totally forget the mistakes I did. Someday I will be able to forgive myself.

Every beat of my heart...

I could feel
It coming from a mile away
When I opened up the door
I saw everything that I've been waiting for, hey
Close your eyes
I don't care what other people say
Here underneath the stars
Now Jupiter and Mars don't seem so far away

I want you to know
You take my breath away
And it's been that way right from the start
I didn't know how to tell you
That I want to love you
With every beat of my hear

Take my hand
Don't be afraid, don't go
I want you to stay
Just relax your mind
I promise that tomorrow will be just like today

That's why I want you to know
That you take my breath away
And it's been that way right from the start
I didn't know to to tell you
That I want to love you
With every beat of my heart

Another reminder on worrying

I love these little reminders of always keeping the faith, be positive, and trust that everything will fall into place eventually. I found one about worrying...

I am admittedly a worry wart. I am not proud of it but it's who I am and I can't help it no matter what I do. That's why I make sure to stop myself from worrying whenever I notice that I am doing it. I try as best I can to be divert my attention but being the eldest has ingrained in me the responsibilities that I always need to be aware of.

That is the reason why I worry all the time.

But I am reminded once again that worry does nothing good.

How I wish I can stop worrying all the freaking time!

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