Choosing to be positive and living it!

It's easy to choose being positive and happy but it's hard to actually do the switch. I was so darn angry the other day because I was feeling betrayed. I knew it would ruin my day and I would be left with nothing but an empty pocket. I had to rush work so I thought I might as well choose to be positive and ignore all the negative emotions in me. I made the choice but hours later, I still feel traces of anger in my heart.

It's one thing to say/preach it. It's another thing to actually live it. The latter is hard to do. In my case, I am really trying hard to be positive all the time. Not because I am some kind of a preachy person who wants to change the world. No, that's not my thing at all. I am trying to be positive because I want to change ME. Myself. I whine, rant and been angry all the time in the past. I don't want that person to exist anymore. I want to grow and not be bitter about so many things in my life.

I no longer feel betrayed. Nahimasmasan na ako.

Positive thoughts only for this week. Hopefully, I will be able to pull it off and follow through with this statement.

Happy Monday everyone!

;)

Feeling betrayed

I am not happy to be wondering if I am betrayed or not. I feel like I keep helping others but at some point I get bitten by them. I don't know why this keeps happening to me. Is it me? But I am not doing anything wrong. In fact, I am the most helpful person this side of the planet when it comes to sharing with others what I know. Most of the time, I even share every little thing I know!

And then this.

Nakakasama ng loob sobra!

I feel like crying...

I don't know what's wrong with me. I have a fever and colds right now. But I've been restless for the past few days and I can't work properly. There's just too many things going on in my mind that sometimes, like today, I feel like I want to cry!

Bawl like a baby.

:((

Regrets

What are you full of regrets about lately?

Something's nagging me right now. It has something to do with my eyesight. And when something's nagging me, I get really cranky. You can expect my temper to be boiling in no time at all.

Yesterday, my sister called me up three times and I missed all of it. When I saw it, I was worried. There wasn't a text message and when I tried to call her back twice, she wasn't answering her phone.

When she called up again twice, I missed both again because I was in the bathroom. When I called and she answered laughing, I flared up! I was so darn worried! I raised my voice at her and scolded her for not leaving a message. Needless to say, she got annoyed at me. She has no work today and we are not talking to each other.

I regret that I didn't rein my temper in. I regret that I've been raising my voice over inconsequential things for the past few days now. I will try to make amends.

Currently reading: Juliet

I am currently reading Juliet by Anne Fortier. I am a member Good Reads. I've been reading some really good reviews about this book so I figured I should read this one, too.

I am a bit slow in reading these days, though. There's just so many things needed to be done that reading is the least of my priorities at the moment. I will tell you more about this book as soon as I finish it.

Happy mid-week everyone!

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