Niche

Since I have made this blog of mine as a blog about my life, the too personal thoughts and feelings that is, I am thinking if I will still include reviews of books and music here. Or maybe I should just continue doing that in akoni. Hmm...

This will be a blog-in-progress.

Stay tuned.

*Update July 18...

I saw a blog wherein the blogger writes 299-word-short novels. A light bulb moment for me! I think I now know what this blog will be all about. Or I might implement this idea in another blog that I am currently maintaining.

Still thinking...

Stay tuned.

I will become a millionaire soon!

I knew it in my heart. It may take me a couple of years more, when my sisters finally become stable. But it will happen.

A few minutes ago, I watched Korina Sanchez' Rated K show. A segment featured a former domestic helper (DH) becoming a self-made millionaire. She worked hard in Saudi Arabia as a DH, working even during her days off as a caregiver and a manicurist. And all her hard work paid off. She saved enough money and went back to the Philippines to open her own business. She and her husband delivered fishes to clients. Upon saving income from their delivery business, they opened a new business of glass and window cutting.

A friend of mine, ate Nalen/Manilenya came to mind while watching the segment. I know in my heart that she will make it as well.

Hardwork, perseverance, a lot of prayers, trust and confidence... these are things needed for a person to make it. To become millionaires. To become financially stable.

I know someday soon I will make it. I already mapped out everything. All I need to do is to slowly (but surely) start the process.

And I will. Soon.

Off to visit mom's grave

We're all going to Bulacan today to visit mom's grave. It's been months since we last visited and we miss going there.

We all miss my mom so much. It's never been the same since she passed away more almost 2 years ago. She's the pasimuno when it comes to goofing around hehehe...

Oh well. Life and death goes hand in hand. Death is inevitable. Some die young, others live to be a hundred.

Have a blessed Sunday everyone.

Making peace with everything...

I have made peace with my current situation, Howling. I know that things happen for a reason and maybe, this is a blessing in disguise, I just don’t look at it this way. Maybe, God is telling me something and as you've said kuya, I'm not listening to Him. I am straining to listen to what I wanted to hear, stubborn girl that I am. Not anymore, though :)

Now, I try to inject something positive in everything that I do. I try my best to reject all the negative thoughts that pop inside my head. Course, there are times that I'd succumb to temptation again but I know He'll keep me in line :) He commissions a lot of reinforcements naman in the form of friends, offline and online (di ba sis and ate ghee ^_^).

My heart is full of happiness right now because I felt His love this morning. Nagpapansin, mam, effective naman! Hahaha!

I SO LOVE LIFE!!!

Growing old...

I don’t like Friendster that much. I get into this rollercoaster ride whenever I open it. Happy and sad and envious and mad at myself for being envious… Hay…

I saw a friend’s account. She got married already pala. I was not invited! Hehehe… Okay lang. We had a falling out a couple of years back. Forgive and forget. The friendship was already broken and there’s a gap as wide as the ocean that we can never bridge again. I just felt sad and depressed. It was partly my fault that our friendship was broken. And she was a good friend. Until that falling out. Depressed the hell out of me when I viewed her wedding photos.

I saw another former friend’s account. Eto yung kasangga ko back in college until my early years of being an accountant. She’s still single like me. There’s just one pic that I saw that made me recall all the good days back when we’re reviewing for the board exams. Made me teary-eyed.

From the time I viewed all those photos until now, I'm still feeling down. I miss them. I miss the old days.

These are sure signs of growing old. It'll be my 29th birthday on August 3. I started getting old when I was 12. So indulge me when I say that I might be undergoing a midlife crisis soon.

Melancholy...

Lately, I've been feeling down again. It may be caused by the gloomy weather. It may be caused by the songs I've been listening to. It may be caused by exhaustion, from making money online. It may be caused by a lot of things. I don't really know.

My soul wishes...

I always know there's something missing in my life. I am just attributing it to my discontentment of my profession. But there's just something I can't quite put my finger on. It's something I've been wanting for so long and yet...

This morning, while having breakfast, I saw a mom with her two daughters. I was looking at the youngest one, busy talking and telling her older sister about the straws she took from the counter. And it dawned on me, what I have been longing for for so long now...

A kid of my own.

Someone I can pass on everything I know, everything I've been working so hard for.

Yes, my family is there for me. My hands are full just with them alone. But still, there's something in me that is longing for someone of my own.

I don't know if I should be acting on this impulse. I know I will be a very good mother. I can provide for my kid. I can give her her basic needs, send her to a good school, put a roof over her head.

I will think about it again. I will pray to God for His guidance.

By next year, I want to get pregnant.

Let's see.