My mom, my angel...

I miss her so much. It has been 2 years now since I saw her breathed her last. It will forever be one of the most painful experiences of my life... seeing her die.

Home has never been the same without her. She had a way of making her presence known. Nobody can cook like her ever. My mom was a superb cook. I miss hearing her ask what ulam I want. I miss her hamonado, chicken tocino, chopsuey, spaghetti... I miss watching her cook, helping her prepare the ingredients. Even the smell of her cooking...

I miss going home and finding her waiting. I miss telling her everything happening to me. She would be the first one to encourage me to pursue something I wanted to do... besides wanting to see me happy, I guess it was her way of saying sorry for pushing me into this profession. I miss making sumbong about work. I miss hearing her cheer me on. I can just see her face if I told her I want to quit work. She knew everything about me.

I miss hugging her and laughing with her. I miss her childlike glee upon seeing a gift or a pasalubong for her. I miss gossiping with her about people we both know. Or hearing whose birthday it is today. She had this uncanny knack of remembering special occasions.

Today is her 2nd death anniversary, later at exactly 9:30 in the morning. I miss my mom so much. Life will never ever be the same without her to share everything with.

I love you 'my!

*Originally posted at: Sasha-says
**Related: Missing them

We need space!

We’re a big family. Naturally, space is always a big consideration for us. For us girls alone, we have 2 closets each for our clothes and other stuff but it still is not enough. Most especially my sister who’s next to me, who loves collecting so many clothes that some are still brand new and unused to date. We’re not yet talking about our bags and shoes and accessories and my books and CDs… I could go on and on about our stuff at home. I haven’t mentioned my brother and my dad yet.

I miss my mom...

I miss going home and finding her waiting. I miss telling her everything happening to me. She would be the first one to encourage me to pursue something I wanted to do… besides wanting to see me happy, I guess it was her way of saying sorry for pushing me into this profession. I miss making sumbong about work. I miss hearing her cheer me on. I can just see her face if I told her I want to quit work. She knew everything about me.

I miss hugging her and laughing with her. I miss her childlike glee upon seeing a gift or a pasalubong for her. I miss gossiping with her about people we both know. Or hearing whose birthday it is today. She had this uncanny knack of remembering special occasions.

I miss her so much...

For all my girlfriends out there!

Time passes.
Life happens.
Distance separates.

Children grow up.
Jobs come and go.
Love waxes and wanes.

Men don't do what they're supposed to do.

Hearts break
Parents die.
Colleagues forget favors.

Careers end.
BUT........
Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how
many miles are between you. A girlfriend is never farther away
than needing her can reach.

When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you
have to walk it by yourself, the women in your life
will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on,
praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on
your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the
valley's end.

Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk
beside you...Or come in and carry you out.

Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters,
daughters-in-law, sisters, sisters-in-law, Mothers,
Grandmothers, aunties, nieces, cousins and extended
family, all bless our life!

The world wouldn't be the same without women, and
neither would I. When we began this adventure called
womanhood, we had no idea of the incredible joys or
sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much we
would need each other.

Every day, we need each other still.

Burdens in our lives

How do you deal with your problems? I believe burdens come to test us how strong we are. God don't give problems that He knows we cant solve it. As they say If theres a problem there always a solution. An anecdote that I read inspired me and help me how to deal with life problems.It goes this way.Did you know that an eagle knows when a storm is approaching long before it breaks? The eagle will fly to some high spot and wait for the winds to come. When the storm hits, it sets its wings so that the wind will pick it up and lift it above the storm. While the storm rages below, the eagle is soaring above it.The eagle does not escape the storm. It simply uses the storm to lift it higher. It rises on the winds that bring the storm.When the storms of life come upon us - and all of us will experience them - we can rise above them by setting our minds and our belief toward God. The storms do not have to overcome us. We can allow God’s power to lift us above them.God enables us to ride the winds of the storm that bring sickness, tragedy, failure and disappointment in our lives. We can soar above the storm.

Remember, it is not the burdens of life that weigh us down, it is how we handle them.

Loving Jason Mraz...

I love his cool voice and that lethargy that settles in you when you hear his songs. All you can think is lounging somewhere relaxing and peaceful. With a glass of fruit shake with that little umbrella on the side. Your glasses on, a good book just beside the chaise lounge you're lying on. The sun beating down on you.

I am currently addicted to Clockwatching...

Yeah blogging!

As much as possible, I don’t complain. I always think of a reason why something happened or is happening. That attitude is keeping me sane.

But for the past few days now, I am complaining to my dad that my back aches because I think my computer table is not where I want it to be. Finally, he heard my pleas of rearranging these two tables (my computer table and another desk). When I got home, he had shown proudly that he made a corner for me, a mini office. Hahahah… so happy!

Now I am enjoying this strategic location of my computer table… I can blog and watch tv at the same time! Hehehe

Goodbye back aches and thanks to my dad!

Sweet life...

I just love this time of the day. Friday night until Saturday morning... everybody's sleeping and it's relatively quiet at home.

I am not here at my busy corner, listening to really mellow and soothing songs and sipping coffee.

What a sweet life!

Course I have tons of pending things to do and I have some deadlines to beat. Still...

For a time now, I have been really contemplating on this major decision I am about to make. I am thinking of quitting work and focusing on my freelance jobs. I have a lot going in my writing "career" and this is the one area of my life right now that is making me entirely happy. I look forward to going online and write until my eyes get tired and my back aches. I love it!

But I have to think of my family first before myself. There are just some concerns that I need to iron out before making the big move.

I just wish that this time, I get to do what I want and at the same time take care of my responsibilities.