Adieu

2006 has been both sad and happy to me. So many things happened in the last 12 months of my life.

And now... before the year ends... naglipat na ako ng bahay!!! Tenchu, tenchu, ate Ethel! :D

Welcome kayong lahat sa bahay ko, tao, sirena, pusit at daga! Isama na rin pala lahat ng angels at fairies at tutubi ^_^ Lalung-lalo na ang mga adik... tulad ko! Nyahaha!

HUGS for all!

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY 2007 TO EVERYONE!!!

Thank you...

Sometimes, life gets so busy
that we could not find time to say
"Thank you"
to someone who has been so nice
and wonderful...

Thank you for being in my life.
I am blessed to know you.

My good friend, Dino, sent this message an hour ago. I was so touched by the message I thought of blogging about it. You see, sometimes, we truly do forget to say thank you to a lot of people just because we expect them to be always there. What if, by some twist of fate, they won't be there tomorrow or the day after... we would never be able to say thank you to them anymore.

So I'm taking this opportunity to say THANK YOU, dear blogger friends for being there for me for the past six months now... always sharing with the laughter, tears and all the whatnots in between ^_^

Have a great week ahead, everyone!

P.S. Can I ask you to pray for me for the next two weeks? I truly need all the prayers that I can get so I can get A by next year. Again, thank you friends! ^_^

Sa lahat ng mga nag-comment...

Please click this box ^_^

Iskoo... thank you for always leaving comments and for inspiring me to make use of my phone camera kahit hindi maganda ang resolution nito ;)

Sis... thank you for being a sister eventho hindi matuloy ang ating pagkikita! Hahaha! Di bale, we text each other naman almost everyday di ba? Saka nagkausap na tayo at narinig ko na ang boses ng aking nawawalang kapatid! Hehehe

Seriously, thank you for all the times you're there when I needed a kakulitan :) You don’t know how many times you've cheered me up when I needed it most. Kaya nga yata tayo nagkalapit because the most "challenging" months of this year, ikaw ang nakakakulitan ko... I hope walang mabago :)

Ate Ann… thank you for making me realize that motherhood is such a joy kahit na mahirap. And for telling me not to get scared inspite of all the horrid things I hear about marriage :)

Idealpinkrose… thank you kahit na wala ka pa sa link ko :) Link kita ha? Hehehe

Mam Teks… thank you for being the first blogger to welcome me. Sa iyo ko rin nakuha ang ibang links na naging part na ng aking blog life. Thank you at hindi ka nagbabago eversince nakilala kita dito. Pati na rin pala sa mga text messages… appreciate ko lahat yun! Lalo na yung MOA joke! Hehehe

TiKey… thank you for all those times na pinatawa mo ako, consciously and unconsciously. For all the kind words, thank you. For making me realize that beauty is… US! Hahaha! Nde nga, di ba? *wink*

Mei… thank you for showing your passport. Seriously. God used you to tell me something and I just realized it the other day. Thank you for the prayers (sabi mo you'll pray for me ha, hehe)… I just know you'd be a good friend if we get to meet in person :)

Ate Raquel… thank you for one of your posts. It inspired me to continue doing what I've recently started. For being nice as well… kaya nga ako bloghop sa site mo because of your tags and comments sa mga napuntahan ko :) I just know you'd be another great blogger friend to have around me.

Pam… thank you for always leaving a comment… I swore off bitchin' so it's always nice to read your posts… hehehe

Malaya… thank you… naku, mare, you never know the inspiration you brought into my life way back in bravenet pa. I remember one of your old posts about Him, it's a poem you did… I was struggling that time, in between jobs kasi, and it brought me so much peace talaga. Hindi ako natuwa that you have struggles in life rin that time but it trivialized everything that I was going through back then. I wish we can both overcome all these struggles in our lives.

Thank you sa prayers… Been including you in mine :)

Ate Nalen… thank you for being my ultimate inspiration... Seriously. My friend and I was talking a few nights back. We're talking about Singapore and our laging nauunsyaming lakad… and napunta na sayo ang usapan namin (siguro hindi ka makatulog nung isang gabi, ako ang salarin! Hehehe sowee!). Basta, when I read your posts about your life, bumabalik ang spirit sa akin. Promise!

And thank you for being nice and all. Feeling ko, you'd be a great friend given a chance :)

Juana and Mousey… thank you, mare kasi pinaisip niyo ako! Hahaha… Pinag-isa ko na lang kayo ha. Sobrang pinasaya mo ako, Mousey sa iyong mga "cheesy" tags and comments. And Juana, for being a warm person (mouse naman sa lagay ni mousey)…. Hahaha! Natatawa ako sobra! Di ba may mga taong (o daga) na basta na lang magaan ang loob mo, ganun ako sa inyo! Katuwa!

Thank you for being a good blogger friend… sana I get to meet you in person and walang magbago :)

Acceptance... Surrender...

It took me a loooong time to accept everything. It's hard. There's a lot of resistance from within. I kept on pretending that I can survive that way but boy was I wrong! Denial was the name of the game. Slowly, after that enlightening talk that made me realize the lies I've been living in, life's going back to the way it used to be... Before all the denials.

I can proudly say that I'm giving my 99% of myself now. There are lapses, yes, but hey, I wouldn't be human without it!

***

My one and only confidante in the office got a job offer from Procter & Gamble this afternoon. Nagulat sila why we're jumping and laughing and almost crying from the sheer joy brought about by that text message from the company's HR person. Overwhelming!

A few months back, we're talking about looking for another job because we're truly not satisfied with how the companies we're handling are run... but I was always teasing her that she'll probably be the first one to go... Hay, nagkatotoo nga!

So happy for her! I stopped looking for another job muna because I'm focusing on A by next year. And I'm learning to appreciate even the negative things about the company kaya okay lang for me to stay pa. Dapat 2005 natuloy na ako but well my mom asked me to stay so I did. Yun pala she's leaving us na when she made that request. Oh well..

Everything in God's time.

***

Life is never about how bravely you struggle.
Oftentimes, it can be about how willingly you SURRENDER.
Allow God to embrace you just as you are,
and let His love heal you and make you the beautiful,
wonderful, happy person that He made you to be.
God bless everyone!

HAPPY FRIDAY! ^_^

Quickie!

Disoriented ako sa mga araw dahil sa laging umaga na matulog... pero kanina when I looked at my desk calendar dito sa office, I realized na...

Simbang Gabi na sa Saturday!

Simba kayo? Nabubuo niyo ba yung 9 days?

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(Posted at 2AM)

Yes, I know, I know... new template again?!? Sisihin niyo si Monday at Tuesday morning and night! Ayan, na-hyper ako! Hahaha!

Indulge me na lang, peeps, at minsan lang ang happiness stretch na ganito sa akin :)

Si mama, Michael at si RHO ang mga salarin! Wehehe...

Gusto ko lang sabihin na natutuwa talaga ako, bru! Grabe! Hahaha! Hanggang sa pagtulog ko yata mangingiti ako nito ^_^ Lukaretz tayo sobra!!!

O siya, yun lang! Matutulog na po ako. Low batt na!

Telebabad...

Pagsakay ko ng van kagabi, may nakangiti sa aking lalaki. Dedma ako syempre... malay ko ba naman kasi kung sa akin talaga sya nakangiti di ba? Hindi pa naman reliable ang aking mga mata sa dilim. Hehehe… Nagulat ako pag-upo ko tinawag nya ako ng "She!". So syempre, alam kong kilala ko siya dapat. Tsk tsk...

Turned out, classmate siya ni Michael, si first bf, sa Mapua. Nakakahiya kasi anlayo na ng kwento niya when I asked his name. Hahaha... Na-gets ko naman na si Michael ang connection namin. Kaya lang I really can't remember who he is. Engineer din sya tulad ni Michael and he's working at Ayala Land daw. Ayun, kwento-kwento ng lahat ng kilala namin. Nauna kasi akong nag-graduate kesa kay Michael dahil 5 years nga ang Engineering while 4 years lang Accountancy (nung 1999 yan, ngayon yata 5 years na rin Accountancy sa lahat ng schools). Gawain na namin dati na ipapasundo nya ako sa driver nila tapos susunduin namin sya. Kaya kilala ko halos lahat ng classmates at friends niya sa Mapua… Dami na nilang may-asawa! Pati yung kausap ko married na rin with 2 kids.

Bago siya bumaba, nasabi niyang nag-uusap pa nga sila ni Michael from time to time…

Around 10pm, nag-ring na ang celfon ko. "Unknown" yung lumalabas kaya naisip ko na agad kung sino yun… si Michael! Expected ko na ite-text siya ni classmate.

Ayun, chika-chika. Uuwi na naman daw sila ngayong 22. Yearly na nilang ginagawa kasi may reunion silang angkan tuwing December 27. Syempre ask kami pareho kung malapit na ba kaming pasakal, este pakasal… parehong hindi pa. Hehehe… Hindi pa raw siya sawa sa pagiging binata. Ako naman, ayun, marami pang gustong gawin din. Pero may gf na siya. Ipapakilala niya raw sa akin pag-uwi nila.

Kalagitnaan ng usap namin, may umagaw ng fon, si mama niya! Sobrang labs ko mom ni Michael. If there's one thing na super pinanghihinayang ko sa naging relationship namin, mom niya yun! Nung pinakilala ako ni Michael sa mom niya, iniwan niya kami to talk. After ng usap namin, close na kami! Mas marami pa kaming "dates" in a week kesa kami ni Michael. Halos dun na ako tumira sa kanila dati dahil lagi kaming merong chikahan portion ng mama niya na umaabot ng madaling araw. Hehehe… Mas marami pang niluha mom niya kesa sa amin ni Michael when we broke up. I realized then that one of the reasons why tumagal kami ni Michael ng 4 years was because ramdam kong love ako ng family niya. Hay…

When my mom died, isa si mama sa mga una kong tinawagan. Iyakan kami sa fon. Inaampon na nga niya ako. Kaso sabi ko paano kung magkabalikan kami ni Michael e di incest yun di ba? Hahaha… Nakaka-miss sobra!

Ayun, chika to death kami ni Michael. Naka-conference call na kami nung 12midnight. Parinig pa si mama na mukha raw kami talaga ni Michael dahil until now single pa kami pareho. Hahaha! Imposible! Tapos 1am to 4am, lahat na ng pwedeng balikan at pag-usapang tao, natalakay na namin ni Michael. Na-realize lang niya na hindi pala ako taga-US nung mga 4:30am na. Hahaha… Ako rin naman feeling taga-ibang bansa at talaga namang gising na gising pa! Pati ang pagba-blog ko naikwento ko na sa kanya. Lumipat na nga kami sa landline dahil kulang na lang umapoy ang celfon ko sa init!

Kaya eto ako ngayon, lumulutang na naman ang isip at hindi pa natutulog. Hyper pa! Pagbaba namin ng fon ng 5am, after 15 minutes tumawag ulit siya. Nakalimutan daw niyang sabihin na dito sila ikakasal ng gf niya sa June 2008. At kasama raw ako sa mandatory attendees. Hahaha! Sabi ko pag-uwi nila wag siyang papakita sa akin at sasakalin ko siya! Hindi ako a-attend at baka pigilan ko pa ang kasalan 'no!

Joke!

Drizzling Monday...

It's drizzling outside… windows are all open… the wind is gently blowing… lights are dim...

A cup of hot choco or latte... The unread mystery novel opened on Chapter 1... Strains of Enya or Bruce Springsteen on the background… Soft, soft pillows… your favorite blanket… your oh-so-used couch that's so comfy you'd want to drown in it…

Hay…

This is by far the most curl-up-on-the-couch Monday morning for me!

Course, I'm here at work daydreaming about it...

Happy lazy Monday, everyone! ^_^

Blast!

Last Thursday night at around 7pm, we went to one of our bosses' place at Mandaluyong to celebrate Accounting department's Christmas party. Ang aga ano? The reason for this is come third week of December, our lives will turn upside down because of the year-end activities that we, Accountants, love sooo much! Yeah right! Bleh

The party's great! We had a game, Pinoy Henyo... if you watch Eat Bulaga, you'd know this game. Super funny! Nobody won! Hahaha! The bosses had a blast playing this game. Naaliw sila sobra!

Food's really good! Again, the bosses contributed most of it. We had pansit hab-hab (did I spell this right?), pork/beef adobo, bbq, sugpo, lumpiang sariwa, sapin-sapin, puto bumbong, mangga at bagoong and different kinds of fruits. Of course, mawawala ba ang serbesa and wine? Nah! Umaapaw!

We had the party at Tomo's place. Grabe, the place is not just a house. When we were planning for it kasi, they kept on saying that we're going to Tomo's house. Naku naman, it's not just a house! Sprawling mansion is more like it! They own numbers 4-10 in Acacia Lane! Grabe! As in the place is huge. We held the party by the poolside. Olympic size yata ang pool! Or close to it :)

Their family owns Jose Rizal University. And a hospital, I forgot to ask kung ano. Ang yaman!

Well, back to the party. I sang! Waaah! We had videoke contests. Talo ako! Hahaha! 91 lang nakuha ko :(

All in all, the party's not what I expected... had a great party when I was expecting a mediocre one. Saya!

Boyet picked me up before 12 midnight. When we're saying goodbye to Tomo, he asked how we're going home. We said we're just getting a cab ang sabi nya, "No, no, get inside muna. Let the guard get a cab for you." Hahaha! Sosyalin!

Our office's official Christmas Party will be held at Intercontinental Hotel on December 15, that's next week. Evening gown, ballroom, executives... they told me to expect a boring party.

Convo, Coffee and Car racing

What do you do when you're bothered and you don't want to acknowledge what it is that's bothering you?

I go talk to Lemuel, my bestfriend.

Me: (text) kol me now.
Lem: (calls) You're disturbing me, do you know that? I'm talking to my boss.
Me: (whines) I told you it'll happen.
Lem: (in French) aburuburururu... (translates in English) Have you taken your medicine already? You sound crazy to me.
Me: Letch ka! Talk to meee... (whines like a siren)
Lem: (in French then translates) Have you eaten at Serye, I'll treat you there. Dinner on Friday?
Me: Do you dance, Lem? Never saw you dance pa. (notice the shift in topics? we talk that way. always!)
Lem: What?? You never saw me dance pa?? Are you my bestfriend or what?
Me: Or what? Hahaha
Lem: See, now you're laughing. You just need to hear me speak and you're starting to get calm na... Am I good or what?
Me: Or what! Hahaha! Thanks, bro!
Lem: (in French) Forget it. It was never meant to be. Focus on A, mate! Opportunity awaits. (yan ang batok nya sa akin lagi! and the shift in topic? hehe)
Me: I know.
Lem: Text Kate (his gf). Mama (Kate's mom) misses you already. (end of conversation)

O di ba, ansaya?! In English yan! Hehehe... Seriously, everything changed after our short and weird convo. Felt on firmer ground again. Drama cut short.

My bestfriend speaks French. He's the Finance head of a European language call center here in Manila. Astig di ba? Ako manager lang, siya, next to the country manager na!

I'm so proud of him. We've been friends for 15 years now! And we've known each other since kindergarten! Tagal na 'no?

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I took out the portion about car racing... andami nag-react! Hay... Na-touch ako, sis! Now I know you truly care hehehe ^_^

Seriously, may 2 lurker na nagalit sa akin. Yung isa, ayaw pa rin akong kausapin! Akala niya siguro tatantanan ko siya. Nope! Until you talk to me. Sorry na!

Yung isa naman... oo na, J at alam ko po. Tama ba namang sigawan ako kanina??

Hindi na po ako join! Kausapin mo na ko,B! Sige na bati na tayo :) Please?

Hollow Mind...

I was thinking of something clever to write about. Something that will make everyone think. But, my mind's not up to the challenge. Been turning my brain upside-down but all it can come up with are these…

I am a woman. I'm entitled to mood swings. True?

Everytime I say "I Love You", it comes from the heart and I truly mean it. Do you mean it too? If truth be told, I have been remiss in telling some people that I love them.

Suicide is never an option. It is the coward's way out, don't you think? Please never ever think of it again. You know who you are. There are dozens of people who love you and care for you. Just look around, we're all here smiling at you.

Everything's easy when it's not about you. Things get complicated when the "you" is replaced with "me".

Hugs make a big difference. It reinforces confidence, well-being and love. HUGS for everyone!

Work like you don't need the money.
Love like you've never been hurt.
Dance like nobody's watching.
Sing like nobody's listening.
Live like it's Heaven on Earth.